incredibly flawed but incredibly wise.

saw this on a blog i simultaneously love & hate.

What is your idea of perfect happiness? "perfection" by nature, is unattainable. i guess happiness, for me, comes most in the small things: embraces, shared moments or laughter from/with friends. a stolen sunrise. when it gets to the larger sense: condition-less love. hence, unattainable. 

What is your greatest fear? never being able to completely let go or trust. failing myself or the people i love.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? lack of judgment. 

What is the trait you most deplore in others? propensity for lies. 

What is your greatest extravagance? non-$: usually staying out & pushing well past what my bod/brain can handle but feeling fabulous/dancing until i drop. $: the lake como trip for francesca's wedding last year. worth every penny.

What is your current state of mind?  mean reds. trying to work through it...

On what occasion do you lie? i fucking HATE lies. and liars. yes, of course, i've withheld info here & there but it makes my skin crawl & i start to manifest physical ailments b/c of it.

What do you dislike most about your appearance? right now, aging has messed w/ my self perception. i've always (since i was 16 & my mother's mother told me i needed to get it done) disliked my nose. & the damn thing seems to be getting bigger, longer... ugh. what else? these new wrinkles are taking some adjusting to. & i'm getting a little thick/soft around the middle, which is tough! i know. i know. vanity is a joke. it's also a reality.

Which living person do you most despise? anyone against equal/civil rights. & "voldemort".

What is the quality you most like in a man? would he make a great gay husband? insert smiley face here.

What is the quality you most like in a woman? honesty, light shining from within, sincerity, & in friends, especially: sisterhood.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?  "bananas", "o.m.g.", "shut UP", "fuck", "like".

Which talent would you most like to have? to heal.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?   staying true to myself in spite of a gad-load of obstacles.  

If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be? i've only known this life. & i've kicked some serious ass. but that said, maybe i'd come back & have less fear than i did so long ago & take bigger/smarter risks. yeah. on the return, i'd kick more ass as me. 

Where would you like to live? nyc still has my heart but paris has some draw. as does mexico. 

What is your most treasured possession? my fucking soul. 

What do you most value in your friends?  the bright light! love, heart, strength, honesty, loyalty

Who are your favorite writers? junot diaz, salman rushdie, jeanette winterson, paulo coelho... plus, some my friends write mad cool shit. (& me, when i'm on.)

Who is your favorite hero of fiction? i tend to be more down with the anti-hero.

Which historical figure do you most identify with?  lee krasner. or lee miller. 

What is it that you most dislike? malice or cruelty. lies.

What is your motto? stop thinking about the destination & start thinking about the journey. my dad said that. & he was an incredibly flawed but incredibly wise & wonderful man. i like to think i have some of him within me...

xoxo